Sunday, November 24, 2013

It's Beginning to Look a Lot Like...

I'm just one of those genetically obese people.  I will have to work my ass off to be slim and fit.

It had been 222 days since everyone last played the Wii Fit.  I gained 16 pounds.  What the fuck.  I mean, what the fuck am I doing?  I know I was getting larger; clothes I was excited to wear again were getting too tight.  It's my binge eating.  I ate too much candy around Halloween.  I ate whole boxes of crackers or cookies.  I ate enough for 2 or 3 meals in one setting.  What can I do to stop?

Why am I not naturally petite and slim?  I am sorry to those who may be offended, but how is being too skinny the same?  It's fucking easy to gain weight - eat more!  How is that as difficult and painful as exercising and starving yourself?  Yes, starving!  I've tried eating less than 1500 calories per day, and I will get hypoglycemic, headache, crabby, nauseous, shaky, unfocused and faint.  How can I exercise and survive on a low calorie diet?  How can I burn more than I consume when I have to work 10-hour days and raise a family?  Where are my answers?

So obviously I'm feeling negative and in a rut.  It has been 32 days since I joined the gym, and have worked out a minimum of 45 minutes 15 times.  Also, because of my workouts, I have had less time to overeat and/or sit on my ass.  I have been more conscious if I do eat out; choosing grilled chicken over processed beef, vegetables over potatoes, small portions instead of large.  Have I lost weight since I joined the gym?  That's a big fat no.  It can't be the stupid muscle mass thing because I'm not lifting weights that much.

That being said, I am still tobacco free!  Woo hoo.

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