3 Weeks and Counting!

Well, it has been exactly 22 days since my last wonderful smoke.  I survived a weekend trip with 3 children to visit my dad.  Only a 3 hour drive.  Spent most of today with a headache.  Holy moly.  I would love to go outside for a quiet, solitary walk.  I used to do just that when I wanted a cigarette.  Now, I don't have an excuse to go by myself.

I have absolutely nothing else on my mind.  It is nice to have this blog for my record; yesterday I thought it had already been 4 weeks since I quit.  Things like this seem to take too long.  Ha.  Just like weight loss.

I'm fucking tired.  Exhausted.  When my little girl was 3 months old, I accepted the lack of sleep might last the next 2 years.  She turned two 3 months ago.  What the hell.  I love her more than life itself, and she is also going through an all-Mama-or-nothing phase, but I need her to fall asleep by 9pm and sleep until 6:45am.  Just once.  Now that the crib is no more, I can't stop her from getting out of bed, opening her door, and screaming all the way down the hall or to my side of the bed.  I have actually slept with her in a twin bed, my own bed and a full bed just in the last week.  4 of the last 7 nights, she slept with me all night.  6 of the last 7 nights, I had to rock her to sleep.  Only one night did she stay asleep once I laid her into her own bed, by herself.  Every morning she wakes up and ends up sleeping the last 1 or 2 hours with me, until my alarm goes off.  I am willing to pay someone very good money to abduct me for a minimum of 3 nights so I can catch up on rest.  Very good money.  All the money I have saved from not buying cigarettes for 3 weeks.  Hmmm, now I must do the math.

I have probably saved myself $55 in the last 3 weeks.  Now, imagine if I ate super duper healthy and didn't spend any money on fast food!  How much money could I save???