6/30

My 3 weeks of "maternity leave" came and went and I've been back to work since Monday. Not looking forward to working the Friday before a holiday. Oh well! I walked 2 miles last night out of frustration with my husband. Tonight I did nothing because its 95 deg and I have a stomach ache. Still haven't lost that initial 10 or 15 lbs I need to before I can fit in most of my work clothes. But it's harder than I thought to find time to exercise. I mostly am only able to walk when I bring my baby on a stroller ride. Sometimes I jog a little but mostly just try to walk fast. Ok, well I'm going to try to fall asleep while my husband tends to a screaming babe.

240.

Nothing important on my mind today. Except thinking that it would be nice for my treadmill to be outside so I could be in the sun and exercise. I know it sounds stupid, since I could just GO for a walk outside, but there is lots of activity in the fields these days as the farmers try to catch up with planting. I don't like walking/jogging in front of a bunch of farmers in their tractors. Nor do I like having to move over so a tractor can drive by and leave me in thick dust. So yes, today I wish my treadmill was in my yard so I could be outside and still walk a mile a two.

I think I'll still bring my dogs for a short walk, and I do mean short, since they like to bark and try to chase tractors.

There are lots of bees and gnats flying around my yard. :(

Well, I'll be stepping on the scale any minute now and all I can say, is I've eaten oatmeal for breakfast every day since I started this blog. So at least I have that going for me.

I wish my genetics would have been more weight friendly.

242.6

Sad face.

Clothes Purge

Starting the day off right...went through my dresser and closet and came up with 4 garbage bags full of clothes I will never wear again. I now have 1 pair of jeans, 3 pairs of capris and 2 pairs of drawstring pants that I could fit into if I needed to. I have one dresser drawer filled with step 1 clothes - for when I lose that first 15 lbs. Step 2 clothes are in a bag in my closet and will be like getting all new clothes because half of them still have tags on them. I'm hoping I will fit into step 2 when I lose 25 lbs!!!!

Alright...had 1/2 cup oatmeal with splenda and milk for breakfast. Going to have some blueberries for snack and Subway chicken sub for lunch. I'm just finishing pumping before I head to the hospital to see my peanut. I hope she's an eating machine today so she can impress the doctors!

Will follow up on the rest of the day later.

My little peanut didn't do awesome today as far as eating goes. Neither did I...tonight I had a double Whopper with cheese, 7 or 8 hershey kisses, 2 tablespoons of peanut butter, and 1/4 cup trail mix. I just get cravings and can eat, eat, eat. But I think I did better than worse.

Ahhhh...time for the scale.

242.6

Rest day

Intro

Tonight I signed up for and canceled an account with Women's Health personal trainer online. It was too complicated. I just need SOMETHING to follow. I quit a lot of things because I can, so I thought if I have a schedule that could slap me in the face every morning with the workout I'm supposed to do, I might actually do it. I am a visual person and need to see my progress or at least my continued effort.

It is day 36 since my daughter was born and she is still in the hospital. I am scheduled to go back to work in 3 weeks. I do not like the number of days disappearing but really feel responsible for returning to work. This makes me sigh and stare deeply at nothing important.

So I want to track my workouts and weight to see if it will help me reach my goal. I'm going all out in the open here.

I'm 5'8" and 240lbs. My BMI says I'm morbidly obese. I still can't see how I let my body get this fat. Hell, I can't SEE me being this fat. But the pants don't lie when they won't even zip up over the fupa I've developed. Since my baby girl was born, I've lost 25lbs and it felt great but now I've realized that it was all fluid. (I flooded the delivery room when my water broke)

My IDEAL weight: 160lbs.

My goal weight: 180lbs.

I figure if I can lose 60lbs, I'll be pretty fucking happy. I'd probably even be up for marathon training, and that's how I'll eventually get down to my ideal weight.

SO here it is. Starting tonight. My fitness tracking blog.

240

0.5 mile walk outside
1.2 mile walk treadmill

Attempted crunches and dumbbell lifting.